Cubane Music

i should have done this a long time ago • i never wanted you to know • about the meltdown or the missing weeks • i'm not your ordinary freak • been lying and hiding myself • when it's bigger than truth, then it's bigger than me • i know it won't matter now, if i had all the proof, it would not set me free • will they all remember i was there? • hope these words don't vanish in the air • i believe, they'll get me, but still i try • while i'm still alive • i think i saw something i shouldn't have seen • they tried to wipe my memory clean • held onto remnants of that fateful night that i'll someday pay for with my life • will they erase all i am and all that I've been, well they already have • you think that I have succumb to irrational fears that seem completely real • will they all remember I was there? • will these words just vanish in the air? • i believe, they'll get me, but still i try • while i'm still alive
careful, careful, you don't understand • another diamond in the rough • reckless, reckless, got to self destruct to learn when you have had enough • taste it, taste it, life is bittersweet, you picky eaters of the world • fasting, fasting, till your see-thru soul, has no more room or desire to grow • if i knew your passion play was just to coincide with the making of your next grand reprise, i would try to look away but it gets me every time • i'll enjoy watching you train wreck this time • power, power, can you gain control and spread till nothing is taboo? • liar, liar, twist your words around till you believe it to be true • drama, drama, can you get enough to fill the vacuum of your worth? • martyr, martyr, should we cry until the rivers overflow the earth? • if i knew your passion play was just to coincide with the making of your next grand reprise, i would try to look away but it gets me every time • i'll enjoy watching you train wreck this time
i'm no different • just another nameless face • we're all falling from the same plateau of grace • i bought it all; i was a part of the team • it's hard to wake up from the american dream • my perception doesn't matter at all • tripped long ago, i just forgot how to fall • these broken connections divide the collective subconscious mind • the meaning is going to waste so try for the sake of the race • i implore you • if you only meddle in the tangible • you've been missing everything; a whole life, subliminal • when you tread, you better humble your roll • plan to defend all that you keep in your soul • your illusions aren't what they used to be • you are not blind; you just forgot how to see • these broken connections divide the collective subconscious mind • the meaning is going to waste so try for the sake of the race • i implore you • look beyond the things that destroy you • shave your heart • so you don't break where you bend • world's apart • we all get there in the end • holding on • maybe we'll turn this around • so far gone • nose-diving into the ground • self inflicted crimes • new medieval times • you paid it no mind at all just like it didn't exist, till now • you never wrestled with god, your sense of being would not allow • well, WAKE UP, my fallen lord • when did we get so, comfortable? • or was that the idea all along? • so why are you chained to your mind when you will transcend that in time? • with so much unlearning to do, there may be no saving you
cautious in the way • i can sense temptation from a million miles away • and when i feel the pull • i may get inquisitive but won't play the fool • i got a made-up mind • saves my ass every time • nothing that I want tomorrow will better me today • it's not my way • just another easy rider • just a brother on his way livin' day by day • if you want to know the answers • if you want to break your chains, then why you stay? • your information's beat when it's all provided to you filtered and weak • this cycle ain't complete • not till all these castles we built come crashing down at your feet • so in a memory, become your own enemy • nothing that i want tomorrow will better me today • it's not my way • just another easy rider • just a brother on his way, livin' day by day • if you want to know the answers • if you want to break your chains, then why you stay? • i won't ask you to crawl out from under you stone • but don't judge me down, if it's the path I choose to roam • if you want to know the answers • if you want to break your chains, then why you stay? • just another easy rider • just a brother on his way, livin' day by day
down in the coal mines • dark times • i'm covered in dust from all the destruction of pillars of trust • and there is no tidal wave big enough to wash me clean • a subtle poison inside • translucent on the outside • how should i feel when my feelers loose their way? • i sailed your ocean during turbulent times • and felt though i had damn near lost my mind • desperately faithful • i weathered your storm 'till i don't feel like sailing anymore • you're not the angel they all thought you to be • ‘cause when you lie to yourself, you're still lying to me • your fairy tale's a disease • your life is just make believe • out in the fields of good reason, i can't think it out • so what's this experience really about? • when driven by treason and shame, you don't know where to go • and i may never know • nerve damage, can you feel it? • the absence of my interest • nerve damage, can't believe it • thought i'd be stronger than this • nerve damage, singed and smoking • this basic sense is broken • nerve damage, time for healing so I'll know when i'm feeling love • you're not the angel they all thought you to be • ‘cause when you lied to yourself, you were suffering me • so walk a mile in my shoes, before you sing me your blues • thank you • just water under the bridge to fill the soul with regret • it's no sweat • i'm scared of my nerve damage • i'm proud of my nerve damage • i've grown from my nerve damage • and i blame you for my, nerve damage
i used to be a simple man • a simple life • a simple plan • i followed • then i grew numb to the pain • another step and i had changed • i know • i'd give anything to be in your shoes now, if i could • but that whole daydream seems protracted now, and maybe it should • so let me bleed my war • i know the consequences of what i'm killing for • something is better than nothing to relieve all my hurt • can't comprehend it and you know that i'll never let you know • you can't barricade yourself from me • i'm like the truth that sets you free • so don't run • i'm going to cure your arrogance • no one in here is innocent • no one • we all bare responsibility for our tragedies • so i submit to you, my guilty plea • i give up on a world that gives up on itself • so let me bleed my war • i know the consequences of what i'm dying for • something is better than nothing to relieve all my hurt • can't comprehend it and you know that i'll never let you know • seems like only yesterday • the skin i'm in, i couldn't get away • no one knows i tried so very hard to feel like normal in the schoolyard • the messenger is me and it's who i need to be to show you how numb that you all have become and how it's killing me! • so let me bleed my war • i know the consequences of what i'm dying for • something is better than nothing to relieve all my hurt • can't comprehend it and you know that i'll never let you know
i keep an open eye among the hypnotized • hold my head in hands • i'll never understand • to see all the spells that we're under • raised on the lightning and thunder • we all hang around when the circus comes to town • so when you think you found your freedom, hold it close • won't be the severing of your senses that hurts the most • it's all designed to break your mind, to dumb you down with time • so you don't even feel the pain of going numb • my survival plan • change the way i am • if history repeats, i'd rather skip a beat • this way of life is no blessing • build upon years of deception • we're only civilized cause we choose to blindfold our own eyes • so when you think you found your freedom, hold it close • won't be the severing of your senses that hurts the most • it's all designed to break your mind, to dumb you down with time • so you won't even feel the pain of going numb • time to re-evaluate the prize • separate yourself from what's inside • see beyond the shroud of status quo • it's the same old bullshit, let it go • tear the circus down • don't squander one more day, in darkness
i'm not young and i'm not old • and i don't always do all the things i'm told • losing my battle with a.d.d. • search for medication on my t.v. • eager to believe so i can wear it on my sleeve instead of deep beneath • can you help me make my mind up • cure this sickness that i just made up now • you don't want me wasting away • it's gotten worse, i can't control myself • i'm still the man, no matter what • i know with time i could be dangerous • enough to know it won't be my fault • eager to deceive so i can wear it on my sleeve instead of deep beneath • can you help me make my mind up • cure this sickness that i just made up now • you don't want me hurting anyone • well i can't handle my depression • won't you pay me more attention • maybe help me make my mind up • cure this sickness that i just made up now • you know i've never really been wrong • it's just another allergy and you know it won't be long till there's a cure • a pill • a lifelong prescription to fill • and i'll wear it on my sleeve instead of deep beneath • can you help me make my mind up • cure this sickness that i just made up now • you don't want me hurting anyone
farther than i could ponder • still drove the distance from then to now • don't know my mission • got my suspicions • i thought by now i would have broken down • don't care for despair hanging in my air • i will find another way to vent my disease • there's no predictions for my condition • only the cycles within my past • and if the next act ain't in the program • i'll do my best to keep from fading fast • don't care for denial • the whole world's on trial • i must find another way to speak what i see • with apathy to blame • i hang my head in shame • for reasons all so lame • as we go flying though the years • how high you dreaming? • how deep is your fear? • feels like that passion all but ran away for the way you thought it'd be today • i'm not forgetting • not sad or regretting • every now and then i just wake up from the dead • i'm not above all the steps behind me • i found below what it takes to blind me • i used to feel just like a hand • you're much to warm to understand • to comprehend the world with eyes so cold and sterilized • you take the light • i'll take the burn • we all receive a turn • and all these things get locked away in hopes to fade the memory • don't care for your dreaming • don't care for their meaning • my only question • do you plan on waking up • deep down your fear is the only thing you got • deep down your dream is the only thing you need • anyway • anyday • you could be overthrown comfort zone • a casualty • parachute or grow your roots • well i want anything in between
the rain falls hard on my windowpain • you're far away but i feel you the same • i dug a hole deep inside my head to read through every word you ever said • and when you go, you take a little with you in hopes that you'll return • but your disguise and all you secret stories were never my concern • you said you traveled to the corners of the world • you said darkness was your business and that business was good • while all your vagueness stretched my faith till it's blind • i want so bad to believe you're not just wasting my time • cause when you go, you take a little with you in hopes that you'll return • but your disguise and all you secret stories were never my concern • if i could spy or hire private eyes, i fear what i might find • i hope tonight you're sleeping like a baby while i go out of my mind
oh no! • you're precious little kingdom is on fire • some dirty laundry you got spread out on the wire • you've learned to spin your tragedy into your own publicity • no more public apologies • just seems so shallow when you're on your knees • don't try to sell morality • won't get included in your effigy • headlines get vicious while you act like nothing's wrong • can't get your panties in a bunch if they're not on • and shutterbugs wait in the wings for you to slip in fame again • no more public apologies • just seems so shallow when you're on your knees • don't try to sell morality • won't get included in your effigy • i feel so sorry for your family's misery • restless and haunted that they may have raised you that way • so you wanted to be famous and we all came to the show • now you have tasted freedom that most will never know • but infamous we'll make you when you throw it all away • no more public apologies • just seems so shallow when you're on your knees • don't try to sell morality • won't get included in your effigy
we can't remember the garden where we grew • there is no trade back on the soul for what we're going through • no savior's gonna come • and if the world was truly free • you'd rather pray to your t.v. • you let them win by sitting still • the man behind the curtain knows you will • they'll be no revolution • the masses aren't aware • they'll be no evolution here • the masses, they don't care • extinction's gonna come • and if the world was truly free • you'd rather pray to your t.v. • you let them win by sitting still • the man behind the curtain knows you will • and if your brother gets too big • it's just a deeper grave to dig • so trade your freedoms for your thrills • the man behind the curtain knows you will • he knows you well • and when they lay you down to sleep • you give it all for him to reap • and if i wake before i die i'm taking back what's mine • don't care it's just me against the hierarchy
damsel • how could i know? • no one can save you now • a hero is not what you need • too stubborn and far too proud • what is it that you love about a broken home? • it's all you've ever known? • a cop-out • see through like glass • now you fooling no one but yourself, and that's just not good enough • leave it or deal with the consequence • to keep it don't make no sense • we drove too many miles • no one is turning around • crazy • now you've made me • well i can play stubborn too • you're game ain't nothing new • what is it that you love about a broken home? • it's all you've ever shown! • recess; for space and for play • you want it this way • so you can have your cake and eat it too • leave it or deal with the consequence • to keep it don't make no sense • we drove too many miles • so no one is turning around • and through the blanket pinhole sky there is no wrong or right • so i'm sorry • for all these things you can't get past, nothing will ever last for you • what a damn shame • such a damn shame • and tomorrow you might hate me • when I won't care • when i don't care • but today is, the last day, that i suffer... • i saw through every lie in silence • i swallowed double my pride in silence • i'm only walking away • i should be running
insignificant in my existence • just a number • leave your mark on the world, good or bad, you’re still just a number • don’t know the meaning but i do know the value and it’s worth more than everything except my liberty • and if the population slows you down, climb to the top to get your feet off the ground • there’s not enough “happy” to go around and we’re all living so much longer now • i’m just a needle in the proverbial haystack • if they were thinning the herd i wonder how you would react • don’t know the meaning but i do know the value and it’s not worth the rat race that’s impossible to win • and if the population slows you down, claw to the top to get your feet off the ground • there’s not enough “happy” to go around when we’re all living so much longer now • keep donations when you go • we can’t afford them anymore • we might be the virus, earth might be the host • the human condition don’t mean much to most • can’t make me feel selfish 'cause i won’t save a life • there’s too many people and they all won’t keep donations when you go • we can’t afford them anymore • because we can don’t mean we should • we do more harm than we do good • i'm just a needle...
i’m a prisoner trapped inside myself • cold and hardened, a bitter man • been a witness to a lot of things and bare the cross of remembering • i’m the radical with way too much to say fighting to celebrate INDEPENDENCE DAY • so just remind me when the sun is gone that the light will keep shining on and on and on and on... ~ i want to be the love you’re making • i want to be the drug you’re taking • i want to be the canyon carving water that’s flowing through everything • maybe fate could bring the winds of change or maybe hope will steal my drive away • we lock ourselves away • false security created • we gave meaning to a lie • i’m happy to be happy but i’m waiting to be free • oh, more fool me • i want to be the freedom feeler • i want to be the miracle healer • i want to be the sound of silence that’s coming through in stereo • don’t believe in what you’ve learned is true • cause all you need to know, you’ve always knew • the finger with the ring • tie you down to lesser things • you got married to the grave • so lucky to be living • still waiting to be saved • uneven trade • for all the things we think we know, there's a million things we don't. so factfinders of the world, put that in your bowl and smoke it • find yourself a sacred space • love the human, fuck the race • are there not better hills to climb? • i’m happy to be happy but i’m waiting to be free • all in time
demon, you’re so hard to recognize • bigger the mouthpiece, bigger the lie • don’t really know where you’re leading us or why we help set this dangerous precedent • when you’re the king of hypocrisy • deep family ties to the enemy • hell bent to bleed the economy • there is no difference that i can see, president • i could look, maybe i could see or i might feel them when they’re eating me • might finally get angry • don’t you know that we’re all counting on you? • cannibals • they rip the flesh from bone like animals killing on the need to survive • but they have it all • nothings ever sweet enough for cannibals • they offer homeland security • just costs your freedom and liberty • can’t tell the patriot from terrorist • just place the whole world under arrest now • i could vote and play their game • so little choice to bring on so much pain • they only want to hear your voice to make you think you really have a choice • i could look, maybe i could see or i might feel them when they’re eating me • might finally get angry • don’t you know that we’re all counting on you? • cannibals • they rip the flesh from bone like animals killing on the need to survive • but they’ve had it all • nothings ever sweet enough for cannibals • i have a dream • it’s not pretty, it’s not clean • we got to rid the world of all these fevered egos and the war machines • there’s no more land, can’t set sail and start again • to overthrow them ain’t enough to make amends for cannibals • sounds like talking when they chew • makes it that much easier to swallow me and you • still we pay the cost, we turn around and pay the price • what gives them the right to feed their greedy appetites? • i’ve had enough of a nation polarized • i’ve had enough of all these political killers in disguise • i’ve had enough • i hope they choke on us • i’ve had enough
fools • on the quest for the fountain of youth • undeterred by reason or truth • it’s the strangest motivation • to keep their looks from fading they've got to stop this aging now • they can’t be beautiful if they don’t try • cause the magazine covers don’t lie • and never mind if it’s deceiving, it’s surgery worth needing if you don’t mind the bleeding • they’re going to see the doctor • the doctor gonna sell you • the dream of looking younger • to pay for his new girlfriend • the merry go round don’t spin backwards • i’d rather look like i’m getting old than have a clown face frozen and cold • one expression in permanent hold • now you always see them smiling, even when they’re crying, and will be when they’re dying • you know you can’t slow down time • but if you’re pushing rewind • get in the freak show line • now you’ve been convicted of vanity crimes • and all the money you spent was a waste • do you feel a little sting of disgrace when all the kids call you plastic face? • does it fill you up with sorrow thinking of the horror of how you’ll look tomorrow? • you know you can’t slow down time • but if you’re pushing rewind • get in the freak show line • now you’ve been convicted of vanity crimes • you’re not immune to all these free radicals taking their toll on you • there’s nothing that you can do • it’s only skin deep and some things you just can’t keep
i'm only sitting here to play • you're here to take it all away • no trust or sympathy • might as well be enemies • still, i appreciate your way • when you're so brutiful • keep me coming back again • it's so cruel • and i can't get enough abuse • like a fool • going down like i got nothing left to lose • as clever as the hours' long • but there's no clock to tell them on • this could go on all night • they put the devil in the pit tonight • and she's just charming me along • and i don't mind, brutiful • keep me coming back again • it's so cruel • and i can't get enough abuse • like a fool • going down like i got nothing left to lose • we could have played anywhere • somehow we landed here • was it the fate of the night, or just the absence of fear • you're the reason why my joker smile is ten miles wide • and if you give me the hand that i've been waiting for • if i could take back the night • if i could settle the score • i'll still remember you when i'm gone
home and all of the ones that i've known • have never quite felt like my own home • in the days of my innocence • roam through the streets of my neighborhood • before the world was damaged goods • i saw the endless possibilities • this is me and all i could be • i am one with how far i've come • time passes faster every day • takes its toll along the way • how far should one try to settle down? • this is me and all i could be • i am one with how far i've come • it's one more day that i get to say • this is me and all i could be • when the pressure gets to me • sometimes i get lost at sea • no matter how hard i try • i can't find the hope inside • i will find my center where i'm right at home • there's no reason to feel like i've lost • no reason to throw it away • i've survived a thousand times • one more won't kill me today • this is me and all i could be • i am one with how far i've come • it's one more day that i get to say • this is me and all i could be